Today, I'm in a better mood although my childhood friend and Instagram both implied (rather similarly) that I've got nothing to lose in reaching out to LOML in an attempt to clarify the issues that led to our falling out. I believe my fuck-ups and the perceptions of them were not really in line although … Continue reading 9/29/17
After writing about LOML, I feel kind of melancholy realizing I'm capable of the love I was given by him in my own way, but unable to express it to the one person most deserving of receiving that from me. I know now that my expectations of this person being "the one" create the feeling … Continue reading 9/28/17 Worthiness & Purpose Pursuit
I am so ecstatic about all the connections I'm making within the healing, the lessons the confidence and renewed vigor for deep diving into myself! I am embracing through experience the connectivity... oneness of the universe (I know it sounds corny to some but really) of all living things and my optimism and openness are … Continue reading 9/22/17 Chance Meetings & Synchronicity
So a 'friend' essentially stopped talking out of the blue without an explanation after being kind of testy beforehand. I asked for an explanation repeatedly and was ignored and when the person finally decided they wanted to communicate, addressing the maltreatment wasn't on their agenda. So now, there is no communication. Frankly, I don't expect … Continue reading 9/1/17 ‘Rolling in the Deep’
I've been feeling more and more a sense of authentic and deserved confidence in myself as an individual and in the path I've chosen to pave for myself and embark upon. I am no longer afraid of not knowing what's ahead. I recognize my own ability to create healing from whatever circumstances I encounter. I … Continue reading 8/26/17 Slow & Steady Revival of the True Self
Lately, I'm beginning to get more clear on what I need for growth and fulfillment in all areas of life. I'm being forced to recognized and accept that while frustrating and often painful, releasing ideas, material things, and even some relationships that no longer feel oriented toward growth and healing is necessary. It's a learning … Continue reading 8/25/17 Releasing to Make Space for Receiving…
Part of the problem with new beginnings or starting over and rebuilding the self is using the past as one great reference point rather than a study session in a series of many.