Because anybody who enters now must catch my wave. I want to bring in a healthy, passionate, long-lasting lover into my life that grows me respects me, and sees me clearly. I want to invest in someone who also wants to be seen by me so we may relearn intimacy. Getting lost and found in … Continue reading To bring love to me I learn to love me.
I’m aware I really miss what I thought I saw. I invested in an illusion born of impatience, projected my desires onto someone w/similar issues to mine instead of becoming the person I truly desire to attract and accepting that energy when it presented itself… I failed in that too. It wasn’t yet my energy … Continue reading “Accountable”
I was proud of myself for having completed a great majority of the menial tasks I set for myself over the weekend. When you deal with true depression, sometimes just taking good care of yourself and personal business is a feat unto itself. Lately I've been fighting off a true depressive episode, complete with hiding … Continue reading 03.27.2017
I really enjoy observing and hearing from this man. That's a problem. Red flags are flapping and flying in abundance, but there's also much that has what seems like gravitational pull upon me. I hear the call of his shortcomings as much as his attributes and must consistently remind self to disregard expectations and attachments … Continue reading 03.24.2017
We are sub-tweeting our families, friends, and lovers because we don't want to deal with the consequences of expressing our discontent or disagreement with their ideas and behavior, outlook or lifestyle. We ignore calls or partially answer questions. We lie by omission, withhold sex, and treat our children as bargaining tools.... When our actions toward others feel limited by our conditioning, when our understanding or sense of being understood, accepted, appreciated and valued come into question, how do our internal reactions, expectations, and thought processes determine the degree to which we authentically and directly express ourselves to others?
Prompt: What are some ways you go about getting your needs met? Are these practices healthy? Do they help or hinder your growth? What are some needs that are not being met or how could you change your behavior to meet all your needs in a more healthy way?